Most of her close friends know that she starts and closes chapters really well. This girl is resolute. she only knows how to move forward once she’s made up her mind. This girl is often clear-minded. She never likes to second guess herself after already putting herself what is usually a long, demanding decision making process. This girl is stubborn. This girl likes to see things in black and white and rarely likes to take pause in the many shades of gray in between.
This girl never likes to regret. She doesn’t like to change her mind. And, she rarely looks back.
Yes, its tough stance she takes, but it is also this stance- and some would call it heartless- that has made she her heart, mind and soul has remained intact after the Episode with the Fisherman. She made up her mind, moved on, closed chapters and never looked back. The Boy calls this girl a bull dozer- and while this girl is not within reason, she deeply believes in the whole notion of making your bed and then sleeping in it. This girl has learned that not everyone who loves you looks out for you, so really, to a large extent, you have to learn to take care of yourself. The only person who can set you right, really, my friends, is yourself.
The Mother used to say that this girl could be very cold when running a business. She rarely keeps liabilities around and finds it hard to work with people who can’t be on the level with her. She has refused to hire some well recommended people, she’s fired staff and have looked management level people in the face and tell them to piss off. Yes, maybe to an extent, a nicer person would have better people skills; this girl does have those skills but simply- and sometimes, she’d admit, willfully, choose not to exercise it.
You rarely get a second chance with this girl. If she’s decided up front she doesn’t like you, most likely she’d simply “be polite” and basically she’d be indifferent about you. First impressions count a great deal- not that she’s not ever been proven wrong, but such cases are far and few between. The Boy used to say that it was important to learn to pace the people around, to learn to seek a fully harmonious solution. And yes, this girl gets the logic, she just doesn’t function that way.
It comes down to a very simple logic, really. This girl has limited resources, limited time, limited energy. She finds herself in some desperate need to use then as efficiently as she finds optimal for her system. You either matter, or you don’t. Your personal drum beat either kinda meshes with hers, or it doesn’t.
Discordant notes does not a chord make. No matter how much you force it.
